Ukii ♥ ; my bloody life, 私はあなたからのより多くの愛がほしいと思う.

Hey readers, (: . I think i got something wrong in my mind alre. need go IMH, i took pics of my slits. ._." well, its on the road to receovery already . Pics of before & after slitting . The stupid flash of the camera blurred the picture. NICE rights ??! ok . im not a physco . Just think its nice . duh, whatever. Im suddenly back into visual kei songs again, dressing has all the while been on the dark side. lols (: i only wear black white & red. lols. anyway, i suddenly wanna get back doing gothic makeups . is it because my emo-ing now that reflects back into my doings? hmms.. going to pierce back all my lips piercing .

the above are slits on my left hands, going to ok ler. BUT I'm going to slit again when its recovering. heheh :x

this is my right hand, abit blurred. irritating camera. also going to ok ler, its been 3 or more days anyway.

Lols, i'll slit more && upload more pictures with a better camera. ok whateer, i think im mad. I miss him alot, but what to do? cant keep looking for him ): anyway, thanks for friends who consoled me yesterday and got worried when they read my previous post. really appreciated, especially ryan ! made me smile through many silly ways. He send me a picture of him, below stating" smile please bii ". He call me bii cause i was his audi gf before. lols. anyway, no more into audi. sick && tired of it.

Silly rights he ? thanks dude. anyway, i think he's cute. urhh, whatever. lols . Oh yeahs, im looking for a night job, pub or anything. Im fine with it. (:

To ryan: faster let me know hors! :x

Here, comes the sad stuff again. I heard this song, ryan send it to me, its called 爱太痛 by 吳克群 . Ok, im definitly into his songs now. His songs are so sentimental so meaningful. When I first heard it, really teared. Maybe im too emotional myself.. and crazy..
Everynight before i go to bed, erms correction, " morning" cause thats my sleeping hour like 8am ? , i always think of him .. thinking what is he doing now, have he eaten or wad, and did he think of me today :x . I think probably im deluding myself. Life's really bad for me.

the lyrics seriously descrive everything of what im feeling now ;
if you see this, i hope you understand the way i feel ..

吃不能吃
睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会
把爱敷衍用笑容来把眼泪催眠笑不能笑
哭不敢哭
人不像人
鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了
因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了
却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了
爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了
却无法把爱割舍...
我不能睡...我不能够
不能够不爱了

i hate myself..

I did this quiz on FB. Its calculated my birthday.

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

I think its so true. Gemini people are always like that.

Can you kiss me one more time?

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